lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
Love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a Saviour
The hope of nations
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender
Shine your light in
Let the whole world see
We're singing, for the glory
Of the risen King
Jesus, Shine your light in
Let the whole world see
We're singing for the glory
Of the risen king
Sunday, November 21, 2004
-4:57 pm
Ah I finally managed to get hold of a computer after... one painful week without one. But actually it wasn't too bad. Kinda enjoyed the freedom of not having to deal with all the work while I'm away (because I don't check my mail!). At my cousin's place now using his fabulous computer which has broadband! And listening to his awesome Maksim CD on my discman. Haha guess I'll be spending the next one hour doing some sch work. >.<
My house is totally in shambles now. Just visited it to cover our barang with plastic as protection against the rain at the balcony. Everything is like totally hacked away and dusty all over. Even the rubbish chute doesn't have a cover anymore. It's just one gaping, smelly hole in the kitchen wall. Was so tempted to push my bro down that chute. (Kidding lah.) But I'm anticipating how great the house will look after everything's done. Nice Hyatt-like floor, blue bedroom, country-style furniture... my mom would be so estatic. We've been dreaming of it for years.
But for now, we're putting up at my other cousin's place while her family are away in NZ. Her house has a computer but it's really old without internet. I enjoy it there though cos there's Lucky their slobbery but adorable border collie. Get to walk him to Bishan Park every morning and play fetch-the-ball with him on the field. It's really a blissful life. Up till now, when I'm clearing megabytes of mail and worrying about what I'm going to do for CCA orientation. We're way behind schedule. I'd better call Fanis after this to check if all the equipment requirement and performance confirmation forms are in from the CCA leaders.
So for now, I'd get going. Don't know when I'll get to blog again but I'm not too concerned about that :) Byes.
PS: Dear Heavenly Father, I thank you for opening the door for me to bring Paul, Aaron and Jiaying to church. I thank you that You have opened their hearts and have spoken to them. They have truly seen Your goodness and I thank you for their salvation. Father I pray that even as they have taken that step of faith to acknowledge You as their Lord and Savior, You keep them growing in Your love day by day and help me to follow up and minister to them as a friend and sister-in-Christ. I ask that You help me to also bring this other person to church because I know she needs You so badly. I commit my friends' lives into Your hands and I pray that You reveal more of Yourself to them each day. I thank you and praise You, in Jesus' name I pray, Amen.
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Monday, November 15, 2004
-12:39 pm
FYI:
I'll not be home from 15th Nov to 20th Dec because my house will be undergoing renovation. I"ll be staying at some place else, which means I won't be checking my mail (nor updating my blog). If there's anything, you can call/ sms me on my hp. Happy holidays everyone!
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Friday, November 12, 2004
-11:45 pm
Sometimes I feel I don't want people to read what I post up here. Is it shame? Or maybe the fear of being hurt by people you love when they read about what you really feel. I don't know. Guess having that bit of privacy taken from you and put on the Internet for all to see does make me a little more vunerable. But I still keep it up here. Because to me it is a record of my thoughts, not necessarily just displayed for others to comment on. Which means I'm open to criticism (I'm so used to it). I don't think many people wanna read it anyways.
In an ambivalent mood now. Grumpy, angsty, yet a little nostalgic. Weird huh? There's just so much going on now, with packing my stuff because of the house undergoing renovation, and with the news I've gathered from someone about other people's love lives, things aren't really going for me now. Not to mention I have to go to school tomorrow just to hand in my year-end report. Urgh.
But cheers, tomorrow is water baptism day. I really hope those I invited can go, because some (or rather most of them) already can't make it. I just want it to be special, and I want to make an impact, hopefully encouraging others with my testimony :)
Having the sniffles and this awful sore throat which is really painful doesn't help my mood. I just want to go to bed. Which I'll do as soon as my hair is dry. Off to TAWG now...
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Monday, November 08, 2004
-11:22 pm
I like what Asiyah said in her blog. Although it was in a way, a little of equivocation. But it's true. And so is what Jing said in the email.
I guess I've already bared my heart out to you Fianza through email letters. Somehow, I don't get any replies regarding them, but it's ok as long as you get what I'm trying to say.
I know it's hard, and our batch has been so near to breaking up so many times, we barely survived. But here we are, making it through the storm to become Sec. 4s 2005. It is truly heartening to chart our growth along the journey in RGSPB; it has taught and given me so much. I don't want you guys to give up. We've been through so much and it just makes you a failure if you decide to throw in the towel, when you know you can give so much more. Yes, it's noble to know when to let go, but it's just unforgivable to think someone else has got your butt covered and leave the work to MOS and the EXCO. It's not fair. You know it. Like Jing said: get involved. I guess I must learn too to not judge by my batchmates' attendance at functions and their presence in the room, but it really goes to show how committed you are to the board.
When you really love something, you'll sacrifice things that are important to you for it. I don't expect a reward for serving the school; it's just something I do out of passion. What the school has given me (opportunities to learn, experience, exposure), I cannot repay. But the one thing I can do is to give my time and effort in doing stuff that no one wants to do. I've heard someone say that being a prefect sounds real pro, but in actual fact you're the one cleaning the toilets after everyone else. I don't agree. The nature of the work may resemble that but it's all in your perception and attitude towards your responsibility as a prefect. Have you forgotten what you have pledged to do in saying the prefects' creed on just PI this year? To uphold the name of the school, in doing our duties with integrity? The legacy of the board lies in our hands today. We have two choices: either to just slack our way through 2005 since Fiel will be doing all the work, or get off our butts and make a lasting impact in improving our board, actually LIVING OUT what being a prefect means. Show me that you deserve a place in the board, in our batch. Because I can't take people who can't be bothered anymore.
I leave you a legacy
A golden treasury
My hopes and visions
I leave to you
The long and winding road goes on
If I fall behind, please carry on
I will
keep the faith in you
Be brave.
and I love you
Fianza. I always will.
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Sunday, November 07, 2004
-10:31 pm
Ah PIT camp's over (so is telematch!) and IT TOTALLY ROCKED! Fianza's last PIT camp (unless we decide the crash fiel's next yr without the Os) was really great; I thoroughly enjoyed myself :) Night walk was a precious and fun experience and I think our 'lil twos really got the whole meaning of that blind journey. I guess all those scary stuff we tried to do undermined the whole purpose of the thing, that is to help them trust us, having faith that we are there for them.
Although the new PITs do seem a little green around the edges, but with some work, I'm sure they'll be groomed into fine prefects. Gosh I can't believe we're sec 4s already. We've definitely come a long way (Fianzans, I'm sure you agree with me). But being "old" doesn't mean losing the spunk and passion we have in doing our job; the batch is leading RGSPB so we're soooooo gonna rock Orientation 2005! We're the pioneer batch of RP peeps and with ex-prefect Ms. Tay's help, we'll definitely improve how the board runs. We've definitely got somethin goin' on here. I love you peeps!
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Tuesday, November 02, 2004
-10:55 am
I can't believe we won 2nd place for netball carn. 311 you guys are the best! Guess losing my voice cheering the team on was worth it (didn't help when more than half the class wasn't even cheering on the sidelines). And our class tee is sooooooo nice. We could have won best tee design if they had sent it in on time *grumbles*.
Anyways, went to watch ladder 49 on sunday with some of my cell people plus this girl called joanna. No offence, but I really regretted that I went because it was no fun at all. I'm glad Hannah came to save me (you really are a friend!) if not I would have died from the corny-ness of watching this
certain guy and girl flirt with each other. I guess the only good part of the whole mess was that we watched the movie- it was quite a tear-jerker actually. Well, it was for me at least. The finale was really the climax of the whole plot (coming to think of it, it didn't really have much of a plot, just a whole bunch of flashbacks). Now I really respect those fire-fighters/ civil defence and police people. They're really brave.
Wanted to watch wimbledon actually. But I suppose the guys preferred ladder 49.
Can't wait to watch shark tale on thursday... it's going to be a blast! But I think this is going to be a pretty tiring week, with class BBQ on friday night and then PIT camp from saturday to sunday. My hols are going to be mostly used up for organising board stuff. Besides doing these really cheem HMT prelim papers. Let's see what I want to do during these hols:
1. Get my ears pierced and buy nice dangly earrings
2. Buy a pair of sub-formal sandals that I can wear to church
3. Buy more shorts (need it for youth camp and langkawi right after the former)
4. Get my hair cut with Rachel
5. Go swimming with Rachel
6. Get enough sleep
7. Lose weight
8. Pack my stuff into boxes in time for renovation
9. Buy a skirt
Mom's really busy so I reckon she wouldn't have the time to do some of these stuff with me. But I need her to pay for my purchases, haha :) Maybe I'll get Hannah to go to Bits & Pieces with me to pierce my ears. But it'll have to be after PIT camp, and after water baptism as well? (I don't wanna risk an infection.) Meanwhile, I guess I'll just daydream about it some more...
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