lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
Love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a Saviour
The hope of nations
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender
Shine your light in
Let the whole world see
We're singing, for the glory
Of the risen King
Jesus, Shine your light in
Let the whole world see
We're singing for the glory
Of the risen king
Friday, March 25, 2005
-10:52 pm
*Listening to Hillsong London's Shout God's Fame- Center of My Life
Today's good friday. Brought an ex-pri sch mate whom Mrs. Kuek introduced at TVPS sports day to The Greatest Miracle Ever easter presentation yesterday. Don't really know the guy but anyways, he seems like a really unique person. Though he's very open, he's not convinced. He's a very seeing-is-believing person so I need to pray for God to *blam!* give him a supernatural encounter to really EXPERIENCE Him. Guess he won't be so cynical then. I feel so enlightened compared to him. And I thank Jesus for "putting light in my heart" so that I can see the truth. I was really blessed by the presentation. The 3 monologues of the different characters gave me a lot of insight to Jesus' character. I really felt that I got to know Him better then. Their stories, though just told through words filled with true emotions and song, was really moving and touched me deep down inside. Made me so thankful for everything Jesus did on the cross just so that I won't have to go through all that suffering and wear that crown of thorns. Really love Him so much. But as always, the video clips of Jesus carrying His cross to calvary, struggling under the weight of it, a torturous whip tearing at the flesh on His back, blood streaming down all over His face from the crown of thorns, His hands and feet being nailed to the cross, each cry of pain never failing to bring a fresh assault of tears... it was a realisation all over again how great His love for us is that He would suffer so so much. Imagine that through the blood streaming down His forehead into His eyes, He looked into the future, beyond all that pain and suffering and saw you, [insert your name here] being born into the world, and He knew that it was all worth it because you'll never have to die for your sins or go through all that He has been through.
Life is really full of ironies. (It reminds me of The Crucible and how the hypocrisy was so sickening, irrationally crucifying the most righteous people when authorities pledged to weed out the evil in Salem but never mind, more about that some other time.) Jesus suffered so much injustice, being condemned to die by the most horrible and humiliating death of that time over a vile criminal Barabas whom the crowd released on Passover. The Roman soldiers were mocking Him, calling Him the King of Jews but little did they know that He indeed is the Son of God and King over all the earth. Jesus died for those soldiers as well. He didn't retaliate when they brutally tortured Him. It took a pure, willing sacrifice to pay the price of sin- death and eternal condemnation. And now we're living in freedom because of Him. Though it made me angry and sad that they were so unfair to Jesus, God's purpose wouldn't be fulfilled if they did not crucify Him. It had to be done, and Jesus accepted that as God's will. One of His last words were "Father, forgive them for their know not what they are doing." Would any man think of others when He was in such unspeakable pain and at the brink of death? Yes, Jesus, our Saviour and Redeemer would and He did, mind you. But the world is still disillusioned, their eyes blinded by the unseen enemy whose sole purpose is to destroy and bring death. If only they knew what the Truth is... Sometimes, I just really wanna scream "WAKE UP!! Can't you see what's happening? Can you understand the truth?" But no I can't do that. The thing is that God's love and Jesus dying on the cross is irrational. Within human wisdom, we can never understand why Jesus did what He did, nor why God loves us so much. We need a special touch from God. You've got to experience it to know and believe it. What's worse is that our generation has become so cynical. That doesn't make evangelism any easier. But believers out there, let's not give up and persevere because we know that God hears our prayers for our friends and a breakthrough will come through our audacious faith and fervent prayer.
Anw, I shall talk about Tioman now. As I admired the beauty of nature each day, each sunset in the blue-orange gradient sky (I took soo many photos of that!) and the awe-inspiring scenery (clear blue waters and white sandy beach, the fishes and the corals), I just marvelled at God's awesome power, at His beauty because all His creation reflects their Maker. It was really relaxing and I must say that the experience was almost spiritual. I ran out of words to describe how
beautiful everything was, it was just indescribibly _____. Now I can understand why Mr. Lim's vocabulary was limited to beautiful and cute. Haha :) Still remember Avonne trying to teach him new words, revising with him every now and then. Got to know lots of people there too. Have always thought Joan Ryan to be really dao and a person who really hates me (for booking her). But she turned out to be really nice and friendly, a real humorous and fun person too :) We were all dreading our return to Singapore, moaning at the sight of badly-designed HDB flats along the highway, complaining the lack of lush vegetation and mangroves blah blah... It was really so funny, but true in the sense that we really missed Tioman. Then we discussed how we could cure our Tioman-sickness. Joan said she would pour water into her back garden to make a mangrove, Jav said she'd pour sand on her room floor (yes, the floor chalet we were sharing was perpetually sandy somehow) and Av wanted to buy those nature sounds CD of waves to fall asleep to. Every night there, we could just hear the waves crashing on the beach and it was so idyllic and thereupathic. Ah... I could just go on and on about Tioman and I'll never stop; there's just so much to say. But to cut the story short, I thoroughly enjoyed myself and learnt so much invaluable stuff, re-ignited my love for Bio and didn't regret a single cent of that $575 I paid for it. So yea, chole, char, you peeps should go sign up for it next year! It's a really wonderful experience, satisfaction guranteed! Haha... this is good for next year's sec 3s who will be missing OBS too :)
Whoa this is a looong post. It's getting late so I'd better get going. Can feel myself going into the stoned mood now >.< Slept at 2 last night watching Men Of Honour on TV. Homework update: MAD SCRAMBLE IN PROGRESS!!! RS is in bad shape. Ok, so I have been procrastinating. *bonks myself on the head* We haven't finished the report so there's no way Ms. Leow can vet it before 1st draft due date this coming monday (eeps! panic panic panic). So Cynthia's coming over tmr so finish the thingy (I doubt we will in only 2 hours but still...). Can't wait to go to church tmr! Miss service, cell! and the passion peeps!!! But I shld be more concerned about RS now. And yes, if I don't sleep now I can forget about being awake enough to do serious thinking for RS tmr so g'nite!
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