lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
Love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a Saviour
The hope of nations
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender
Shine your light in
Let the whole world see
We're singing, for the glory
Of the risen King
Jesus, Shine your light in
Let the whole world see
We're singing for the glory
Of the risen king
Sunday, April 03, 2005
-7:05 pm
ok. i need to blog. there's so much i want to say, but so little time to type it out with (rushing work but taking a break now). i've been really enlightened this past friday and saturday. during dedication service in school on friday, was so blessed by the testimonies of suat and xiaoting, and also ms chia's sharing. it's encouraging to hear how God's working in others' lives, to hear about His goodness and faithfulness and to know that He's MOVING! Haha. God totally rocks. The story about the 100m runner really spoke to me about how God made different ones of us special, giving us different gifts and talents that we are not to bury underground just for mock humility but to use for His glory. And it is only when we release areas of our lives to Him (i.e. accepting that our human strength is limited and asking for that supernatural strength from God) that He is able to allow His power to flow in our lives. Saturday's sermon spoke a lot to me too. We're accountable for our God-given resources (which is actually everything including our lives) with regards to how we use them- our time and money. So... I recognise that I need to stop spending money on non-necessities (i.e. nice dangly earrings) and start investing my time and money (or rather returning to God what He gave me to steward) in His kingdom and building His house. The sermon was really apt because I'm currently experiencing a mini financial crisis and to understand the spiritual prinicples that govern financial prosperity (which is a promise from God and solely His work) allows me to break free from trying to struggle on my own efforts.
Yup. And I've decided to join music min (like FINALLY!) but I'm afraid... I don't know why but I figure it's the inferiority complex again, something that I know is totally irrational. I couldn't summon the courage to go up to ask bro. victor yesterday cos... I was just so unsure of myself. I keep coming up with excuses like "I'm not good enough, I'm only a grade 7 in organ" or "they already have so many keyboardists" and "but auditions are over". I've got to STOP IT. Serving God with music is my passion and I should pursue it! Shamelessly if I have to. (Ok by that I mean that I shouldn't belittle myself.) I'll train doubly hard till I'm good enough to serve. My dad did say that since time is more precious to me than money, it's worth more to sacrifice my time for God. Well, it's better late than never. I'm actually really inspired by mr. chia my sec 3 form teacher last year. He's really so pro at the guitar. And when we started talking abt music on friday after dedication service, I realised that he took organ too! And mastered the guit all on his own. He used to serve in his youth min in his JC days as primarily a guitarist but he could play almost everything else too- bass, drums and whatever else. Wow. I almost wanted to ask him to be my shifu right then. Now I'm deliberating on whether I should buy a classical guitar on my own to learn ( I don't know if the urge to learn is just a passing phase), or wait till I'm richer (haha) and then get an acoustic. Oh wells. Decisions decisions. Think I'm have decision-phobia and commitment-phobia. Ok. I'm rambling. Shld go off now before I veer too far off my planned schedule.
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JOANE ADELPHIE ; said...
hey gurl.. finally you have choose to join music min.. that good for you.. dun look down on yourself.. ok.. congrat that you take a FIRST MOVE...