lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
Love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a Saviour
The hope of nations
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender
Shine your light in
Let the whole world see
We're singing, for the glory
Of the risen King
Jesus, Shine your light in
Let the whole world see
We're singing for the glory
Of the risen king
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
-8:51 pm
Today was Mary's farewell party. It was really moving and sad because she is such an indispensable part of Tribune. Ever the boisterous bundle of never-ending energy bouncing around during CCA, I can't imagine Tribune without her liveliness. As she was giving her parting shot, I teared when she teared because, well we were close as senior and junior and I'll miss her so much when she's gone. Guess I'm rather sentimental. Well, at least she has a bright future ahead. Moving to canada is a great way to start all over again, escape from the evil education system in Singapore and really live life. I'm sure she'll be happier there albeit the initial pain of separations and farewells.
Came home at 6pm today and immediately fell asleep on my bed until 8 when my mom woke me up. Can't believe how tired I am. Dinner wasn't so great because I had to face the barrage of insecurities and accusations from dad. Hmph. I felt very maligned. Yes, I'm guilty as charged about not managing my time and taking care of my health
in the past but a failure doesn't guarantee that I'll always fail. He doesn't trust me to hold my ground and take care of myself. He even calls me faithless. The fact that I choose to continue my visits to the doc doesn't mean that God is not going to do anything. If it was the case, then cancer-stricken patients all over the world would shun treatment and just wait to be miraculously healed. Faith cannot be extreme. Extreme faith is not faith. It's just not facing up to reality. I guess he is genuinely concerned for me but I at least deserve some respect and trust really. I just don't know what to do. Usually, my emotions tell me to just verbally retaliate, but my rational mind says not to. Let him say what he likes.
I'll prove you wrong, just you see.Remarkable! Three entries in a day today. That's a record (:
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