lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
Love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a Saviour
The hope of nations
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender
Shine your light in
Let the whole world see
We're singing, for the glory
Of the risen King
Jesus, Shine your light in
Let the whole world see
We're singing for the glory
Of the risen king
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
-4:02 pm
It's funny how distrust can be perceived both ways when either accuses the other of suspicious behaviour and illegitimate activity. Oh the irony, when it is he who does not realise that the distrust is one sided.
And it does not lie with me.
I have discovered by trial and error that speaking the truth before nonchalantly complying to the ridiculous terms of the irrational one is the best line of defence. Or attack. (Developing a survival mechanism is absolutely necessary under circumstances in which one comes under fire ever so often.) Once the other party realises how unfounded and silly his claims are, he will naturally back down. So far, it has worked for me- twice. It's better than trying to defend myself. Saying it as it is if one has a clear conscience seems to be the only way to help a delusional someone see that I have nothing to hide.
But distrust, once revealed to the party in question in an accusatory tone, is damaging to a relationship, even if it is consequently cleared. The fact that someone does not trust me shows a lack of understanding of the person that I am. It hurts, especially if you trusted that person to know what you're like. I'd think, "He should know me better than that."
But then again, misunderstandings are as common as the grass that grow by the sidewalk. Rather, they are more like weeds, choking relationships with a parasitic glee, causing amity to crumble into wary misgivings. Once a relationship is caught in the vice-like grip of distrust, its gnarled fingers choke off honest communication and clarity, leaving the rapport to eventually waste away. Distrust feeds on suspicion, which in turn is generated by the very fuel of doubt and fear. It is a self-perpetuating problem that compounds itself with no help from you whatsoever. That is, if nothing is done to stop or altogether prevent it.
That is why I build hedges around the relationships that matter to me, the people whom I love. I will not allow the enemy to gain a foothold by driving in the wedge of distrust, nor permit the seeds of bitterness to take root and grow. Even God-centered relationships are susceptible, though I know for a fact that perfect love i.e. God's way, will help remove the unnecessary burden of paranoia and baseless speculations.
But when all else fails, I'll say it as it is. If one chooses to not believe me, there is nothing more I can do. As long as I know that my ways are right before God, I shall fear the groundless indictment of no man, nor the scheming devil himself. "Take that, you oaf," I'd laugh in his face as he stares, incredulous, caught off guard by the unexpected defeat.
I saw that coming. Too bad for you.
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