lifesong
Everyone needs compassion
Love that's never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a Saviour
The hope of nations
Saviour, He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave
So take me as you find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender
Shine your light in
Let the whole world see
We're singing, for the glory
Of the risen King
Jesus, Shine your light in
Let the whole world see
We're singing for the glory
Of the risen king
Sunday, February 18, 2007
-10:29 pm
I know it was a week ago, but still I must make things clear- read it in clear, bold, red font:
There is nothing going on between me and Alvin,
the F-R-I-E-N-D I brought for v-day's Inside Out.
I know it appeared suspicious, especially since dear Titus asked all the wrong questions! ("How is Michelle as a friend to you?") I thought he was only going to interview my friend, but he got me to stand too. Now I've experienced what it means to think, "Wow that was AWKWARD," in all its entirety. I was like, "This time die lah. What would people think?"
But I don't blame Titus. He was doing his job as the emcee, and was a fabulous one at that. (:
I bet the whole LT was thinking, "Hm..." As we were leaving, some people (ahem some youths) were giving me the *wink wink* look. Sigh. Well, there really is nothing going on!
Here goes the long story (which I shall effectively summarise for you): We met 3 years ago at a CDC camp for students. We were group-mates. And our relationship kinds of ends there. So... yeah. He likes to meet up with old friends, and has an amazing memory- he remembers my birthday every year without fail but I don't even know when his is! Yup he told a white lie- I do not know when his birthday is, much less remember it every year. (I found out though when I discreetly peeped as he filled up the FTV card.)
He often asks if we can meet to catch up or something. I don't always oblige though. So this time, I thought, why not invite him for Inside Out. I emailed him an invitation. I didn't expect him to agree to come (a lack of faith, I admit), but he did. I honestly tried to find a mutual friend to come along so it wouldn't be weird but considering that I don't really know him, it was hard. And the only girl I asked was studying for a bio test the next day.
Perhaps it was the "wrong" occasion, in a sense, to bring a guy. But when things turn out this way, you can't exactly say, "Sorry, I take that back." I did deliberate whether to bring him, but thought, here is the chance to bring someone to Christ. Does my image matter more? Anyways, persons of the opposite gender shouldn't be discriminated against when it comes to extending that opportunity to know God.
Though at first I regretted bringing him, God reminded me of how Alvin heard the gospel for the first time after Inside Out (despite him having visited other churches before) as I shared using the bridge diagram. Thank you, Zhi Chao, for coming down to talk to him. I believe what we shared made him think and put questions in his mind. Even though he didn't receive salvation, we've sown the seed. Someone else may reap the harvest sometime down the road. But it's a start because we have sown the seed.
I know there're some speculations and I'd be lying if I say I'm not bothered at all. But I'm more concerned about the youths in general, especially the younger ones under me. Don't really want to stumble them or anything. And it's not so good if they have the wrong impression. So this is just to clear things up so there're no misunderstandings. If you're confused, please come and talk to me.
Haha actually, I'm not romantically involved with anyone for that matter, except my one true love and desire
JESUS (:
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at 6:33 pm
said...
think he likes you. guys don't remember girl's birthdays by accident.
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at 6:15 pm
Mich. said...
Uh really? Well, he could just have a really good memory. You can add reminders in your phone and sites like Birthday Alarm. Anyways, at that camp we were in, he liked my best friend. That was quite some time ago. But still, nah I don't think so. (:
I'm curious- who are you?